What do I want?

 

What am I waiting for?

I want to hear the  sound of the “big Shofar” as a call to action to my  Neshama.  You created me to “do”, to overcome, to maximize, to grow, to achieve “Gadlus”.   I need you to relate to me in my greatness, hence “Bishofar Gadol”.

I can break down the walls using the sounds of the Shofar blowing.  Meaning when I respond to the alert of “Tika Bishofar Gadol”  with my action of blowing my Shofar by articulating what it is  I want , then Hashem responds in kind.   

I want to articulate my “Want” from a place of greatness, from my highest self..

This hearing and responding with the sounds of the Neshama / Shofar is what I think is a prayer.

Prayer allows me to be free!  לחרותינו 

Prayer has no limits , as described in this Bracha of the gathering together of all the exiled nation of Israel.

So I want to use this Bracha as my way of saying, “ I want to be “Tefillah” ( Prayer) “ as King David said “ואני תפילה” - And,  I am a Tefillah. (Tehillim;109:4)

Is there a voice inside of me that I have pushed aside?

Are there voices of others that have been “stilled” that I now have the opportunity to make space for them to amplify so they are heard and lifted?

What do I want?

בָּרוּךְ אַתָּה ה', מְקַבֵּץ נִדְחֵי עַמּוֹ יִשְׁרָאֵל

This Kavana was inspired by something I learned from a class taught by Rabbi Weinberg.

“ Whenever there is a situation that seems like there is an arbitrary wall preventing me from achieving what is good, and what I want my very opening to “Do”; and Hashem will “do” as I do

“G-d is looking at us to see what we want.  Do we want to wait?  Do we want to do?  There is no such thing as giving into the attribute of Justice.  We are doers. That is what everything is about in Yiddishkeit.”  .   ( Moshiach Tools 8-10-2020 , Rabbi Weinberg, n''y)